I am at home today and finally have a few moments of quiet to sit and write an entry here. It seems my moments of peace and quiet have been limited to when I am sleeping.

Life is just super busy sometimes. I can feel my body screaming at me to slow down a bit. It's funny that the to do list seems to grow longer by the hour and the days seem to be getting shorter.

The "morning/every moment of the day sickness" thing has lost its "fun factor". I have now figured out that it is the fault of my super sensitive nose. It seems the moments that lead me to bond with the nearest toilet are all related to my damn sense of smell.

The other day as I was getting dressed I put on my favorite Calvin Klein scent that I have been proudly wearing for 2 years and BAM!! The toilet and I shared a moment.

We were at the movies the other night and R was eating nachos and the smell of the jalapeno covered goodies was enough to send me running down the aisle like a mad woman. I barely made it to the restroom and may or may not have knocked over some old ladies in the process.

Yesterday while pumping gas I became so green that I literally "yacked" into the trash can next to the gas pump. Thanks to the help of a very nice young man I was able to finish filling the tank without further incident.

And so it goes...on and on. Gotta love it!

Everything else is going well. Trying to get DB ready for school. I cannot believe summer is over. It seems to have flown by too quickly.

The heat sure hasn't taken a turn for the better. Man it has been a wee bit on the FREAKIN' HOT SIDE down here. I will be happy when a "cold front" blows through here and cools us off to a crisp 98 degrees!

R and I have been looking at houses. It appears we will both sell our homes and find a bigger place. R wants to build. I on the other hand am not sure I have the time that entails. I have done that in the past and it is indeed a process. I do think I will lose the battle. Honestly it really isn't a battle worth arguing I suppose. Is it???

I took DB back to school shopping and for the first time ever the child actually cares what she wears and buys. Lord. I miss the days when I picked it all out and she smiled and truly didn't care. Now I face the issue of what is "cool" and what is not "cool". Man, I thought I was pretty young and hip when it came to clothes....I learned that I know nothing about what is "cool" for young girls. I told R he could take her next year. He thinks it could not have been as bad as I described. Oh the boy is clueless.

Well, better get running. I need to eat some lunch. Preferably something with no smell to it. I am seriously thinking about wearing a nose clip for the few months until this wonderful stomach thing passes. Smell is overrated any way right?

Take care out there in Blogger Land!

AM

Well, it has been a long while since I have written here. Life has been so busy that it seems I hardly have time to do much of anything.

Life is good. Of course it has its ups and downs, but it’s been okay. R, DB and I are doing well and the plans for our new life together seem to be coming along. Of course what would my life be like without a few twists and turns?

I have been dealing with a few family issues. Family is a funny thing. Mine never ceases to amaze me and perplex me. Just when you think you have the whole lot figured out...BAM...they throw you a curve ball.

Let's just say that the news of the engagement was met with cheers and celebration. The news of the baby seemed to damper everyone's "happy" moods. Opinions are like assholes...everyone has one.. and apparently my family has more than one.

I have now reached the point where I am screening the phone calls like the White House. Everyone it seems has some input, an opinion, and the all loving judgment. It got to a point where R and I were starting to get really stressed out and it was wearing on us. So, we decided that though we love my family we have to distance ourselves a bit before we both end up in straight jackets and white padded rooms.

I know they mean well, but my GAWD! Being the only girl in the family with brothers who seem to believe they know EVERYTHING and a Mother who doesn't know how to keep certain comments to herself...well it makes for loads of fun.

I know that they will get over themselves shortly. In the meantime R and I are taking the "down low" approach. It's almost comical when they leave messages wondering why we haven't returned their calls the past week. I never claimed to come from a family of rocket scientists. No worries about any of those smarts being in my gene pool.

I am okay and doing well. Battling a little bit of the good old morning sickness. In fact I think the word morning is funny in that little scenario as it seems to occur any darn time of day that it likes. I have had some close calls and I am proud to say I "christened" R's new car last week. That was fun.

Plans are coming along well. We are just busy. I have to get DB ready for school soon. I cannot believe the summer is almost over. Where did it get to? I'm not sure I am ready to part with the lazy days of summer quite yet.

Thank you all for your comments and PM's. Need to catch up with you guys. I know that in the past few weeks I have missed a lot here on the Stream. I hope all is well out there in Blogger Land. I will write as I can, but the next few weeks will be quite busy to. Life will slow down soon and I will have time to write more often. Then you guys will be tired of hearing from me! LOL

Take care out there...

AM

Well, we took my parental units to dinner last night to share our big news. The evening resembled something from a 3 ring circus!

After we got to the restaurant and after Mom had a glass of wine we sprung the news of our engagement. OH MY GAWD! You would have thought we had told the woman that world peace had finally occurred or that she had won the Publishers Clearing House Sweepstakes!

She was so happy.....and SO loud! Words began spewing from her lips like crazy. Here are some of my favorite things that she said in her stadium voice:

"I have been praying for this day forever! Thank you Jesus!"

"I never dreamt I would live to see the day you finally remarried!"

"My daughter is finally getting married everyone!"

She was sharing this news with anyone who would listen. The misfortunate couples sitting next to us, our waiter, and any poor soul in her vicinity.

My dear Father sat in his seat quietly. My Father is a quiet and reflective man. I used to think it was because Momma talks so much. I am now starting to wonder if it's just because he is smarter than the rest of us??

I thought at any minute the woman would start dancing on the table. Perhaps we should not have given her the wine? I sat there wondering how she would handle the second part of our good news.

At this point "R" says to me, "Honey, I think we should go call the kids?"

AM: The kids are with your sister. They are fine Honey.

R: No, I think we should call and check on them.

He smiled at me with that look that said "Get a clue, AM. I need to talk to you."

We kindly excused ourselves to go "check" on the kids. We stepped outside of the restaurant.

R: Did you see your Mother?

I wanted to say Duh everyone in the planet saw and heard that woman.

AM: Yes, I would say she is pretty darn happy.

R: Yup and we are going to keep it that way.

AM: What do you mean?

R: Did you see her? She's freaking glowing! Did you see your Dad? He looks like he wants to die!

AM: Yeah, he's not much on big scenes.

R: Those people in there are my future in-laws and I want to get off on the right foot. We wait to tell that woman until after our doctor appointment.

AM: I thought you said we should get it all out on the table?

R: DID YOU SEE YOUR MOTHER?

I am assuming that the boy thinks he was sitting at the table with someone else.

AM: Yes, Honey.

R: Then we let her bask and glow in this moment and for the love of GAWD and the other 3 people at that table we wait to tell her about the baby. We owe your Dad that much. She's gonna glow. Ok?

AM: Alright. Don't have to ask me twice.

We slip back inside to the crazy woman who used to resemble my Mother. She is now talking to a couple sitting next to us. My Father is drinking his beer, but I am guessing he wished he had chosen something a bit stronger to drown out my Momma.

The rest of the evening went off without issue. She was so happy I think she literally had a natural high. They should bottle that stuff and sell it.

She was already on her cell phone calling everyone she knew as we were leaving the restaurant. I am sure by the time I write this she has talked to everyone she knows and as well as every stranger who would lend an ear.

So, step one complete. R was right. We should let her glow for a few days and tell her about the baby in the privacy of our home. That seems safer for everyone involved.

Oh the journey begins....it's going to be one Hell of a ride! Happy Friday! Take care out there,

AM

First of all I have to say, "Thank You!" to all of you wonderful and amazing Streamers! I am so touched by all of your comments, PM's, and Well Wishes! You guys never cease to amaze me with your kind words and love and support. It is hard to express to "outsiders" the power of the Stream...but it is something truly special.

I am not always great at expressing sentiment, but you all truly know how to touch this crazy girl’s heart and soul! Thank you. You guys made me have to take out the tissues! LOL

And a very special thank to my fellow Texan Colo! Her post on her site today brought tears to my eyes and deeply moved me as she so very often does with her words and beautiful pictures. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

I am still reeling from the excitement of the past few days. It still seems surreal to me, but I am savoring it for all that it is worth. Life has a funny way of changing in the blink of an eye, and I for one am grateful for this change.

R has been like a kid in a candy store. I don't think I have ever seen a grown man be so giddy! For the record he hates when I use the word "giddy" in reference to him, but it truly suits him right now.

Last night he was non-stop talking about all the things we need to do in the next several months. I realized that we will both be very busy bees to say the least. Yet, I know it will all fall into place in its own time. I hope!

I have my first doctor’s appointment on Wednesday. R wants to go with me. I assured him that the first appointment would be uneventful, but he assured me he wasn't going to miss it. It's weird to be with a man who cares so much about even the littlest of things. I was lucky to get my Ex-Husband to just show up for DB's birth..let alone a Dr. appointment. It all seems new....almost like it is the first time.

We were supposed to take my parents to dinner tonight to share the news. Yet, Mom called early this morning to let me know she was feeling a bit under the weather. Maybe that is a good thing...as you guys know my Mother well.

I am quite certain she will be thrilled that I am getting married. She will most likely stand up and hoot and holler and break into festive dancing! For years she has been telling me I was too picky and was convinced I would end up an old maid with 1 million cats.

I know she will love having another grandchild, but I can just hear the comments for the next nine months about the way it unfolded. I am certain they will be many in number and make for good future posts here. Maybe she will surprise me and not say a word. Wait! What the Hell am I thinking? We are talking about MY Mother....not a normal Mother.

R is already praying for a boy. I think he's worried that the female ratio in our new household would be overwhelming if we don't add a little more testosterone to it! He even joked about having twin boys! For the record...NOT FUNNY! Not funny at all! One baby will be plenty. I cannot see myself handling two little R's! I might go crazy! LOL

Well, I best get going. I am working at home and DB just informed me she just might "starve to death" in the next 10 minutes if I don't make her lunch. Oh the girl is a Drama Queen....but it makes her endearing all the more. Sometimes! LOL

Thank you again for all of your comments. I am so happy I can share this with such wonderful and supportive people! And I am glad that I can share this journey with you....it's going to be a new one.

Take care out there. And don't drink the water! I am convinced there was something in the water on our vacation that caused the creation of this little one. And Misty...I am still in shock that something good actually happened on a Monday! That alone means there are big changes in the horizon!

You Guys,

AM

Well, it has been an eventful 24 hours here. I have a lot to share...so bear with me if I seem to ramble on like an idiot. This will be a long post.

Last night I waited for seemed like forever for "R" to get to the house. He was supposed to come right after work, but called to inform me he had some errands and things to do first. To say the least I found myself to be a little irritated.

When you are anxious the minutes seem to pass like years. By the time the boy finally arrived it was already DB's bed time. I found myself to be a bit grumpy as he seemed so giddy and happy and had made me wait so long to do the test.

After we got DB to bed I prepped myself for peeing on the stick. "R" told me to go in the bathroom and do the test and then come out so we could go in and see the results together. I agreed.

As I headed off to the dreaded bathroom he informed me he had to get some things out of the car. I smiled at him but I think may have rolled my eyes in the process.

When I got into the bathroom I opened the box and started to read the directions. I read those 3 times...not because I did not understand the process, but because I was having a really hard time getting myself ready for the results.

Quite a bit of time had passed and "R" knocked on the door asking if I had fallen into the toilet...very funny boy isn't he?

He told me to just do it and meet him in the living room where we could wait for the results together. I somehow managed to get myself to do the deed. Pretty simple actually.....pee on the stick and then run like Hell out of the bathroom and shut the door. Not sure what I was running from exactly, but it sure felt good to be out of there.

When I walked into the living room I was in awe. There was R standing in the middle of the room with a big smile. There were roses everywhere and he had lit some candles and dimmed the lights.

All I was thinking about at that moment was, "Is the boy serious? This is not the time for a romantic interlude...that's what got us to this moment in the first place!"

I must have shown my emotions quite visibly as he took my hand and led me to the couch. We sat down and he was giggling a little bit under his breath.

He then told me that he knew how nervous I was and that he knew that this was not the way I wanted things to unfold. He also told me that he believes everything happens for a reason and that no matter what the result was we would deal with it together.

The boy does have a way of calming me down. Sometimes his words are just soothing and he is so sincere that it melts away doubts and fears in moments.

And then the boy did something I NEVER EVER dreamed he would do. I think I am still reeling from it.

He got down in front of me and I swear the boy was shaking. He took my hand and told me how much he loved me and how much it has meant to him to know me for the past years. He told me his only regret was that we didn't take our friendship to the next level sooner. I had to agree.

He was talking but there was nervousness to his tone. That is weird for R he never seems to get nervous. I asked him if he was ready to go look at the results and he said he had one more thing to say.

He then took out of his pocket a small box and opened it in front of me. I think I automatically started crying and I think he did too. In front of me was the most beautiful ring I have ever seen. The moment seemed surreal and it still does.

And then he told me that he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me no matter what the test result might be. He said that no matter what that little stick said he wanted to take our relationship to another level. He told me he wanted to ask me before we looked at the test so I would never wonder if he asked me to marry him because I was pregnant. He wanted to make sure I never even allowed that question to come into my mind.

I was still crying. I was shocked and felt like my whole body went light. I am not sure how many minutes passed but it must have been several because he finally asked me if I was going to give him an answer. His face seemed more serious than I had ever seen it before. And his hands which were holding mine were sweaty and fidgety.

I could not speak. I don't know why. I sat there staring at this amazing and beautiful man and my heart was filled with such a love that I cannot describe it in words. I tried to talk but the words got lost somewhere. I simply nodded my head yes and grabbed him to hug him. I think we both cried and then one of us started nervously laughing and we couldn't stop for several minutes.

I had forgotten about the little stick waiting for us in the bathroom. Everything just seemed to fade out....and all I could think of was how much I love this man. I wanted to savor the moment for every thrill it had to offer. I never wanted that feeling to end.

Finally we ventured into the bathroom...hand in hand. As we walked into the bathroom I stopped him. I told him I wanted him to look. He agreed and as he turned on the light I closed my eyes and squeezed his hand really hard. It was quiet.

I was anxious and started asking him to tell me what it said. And suddenly he just grabbed me and hugged me and started laughing. I opened my eyes and looked at him. He was wearing the biggest smile I have ever seen. I gave him the "Well...what does it say look??"

R: AM, you and I are going to have a beautiful baby.

AM: It's positive?

R: Yes, baby it is....

AM: And you are okay with this? Really okay? Are we ready for this?

I started giving him question after question and he kept saying yes, yes, and yes. And then suddenly it just seemed okay to me. Everything just seemed okay. And R's happiness and joy were contagious. I could not help but share his excitement.

We ended up staying up most of the night talking about our future and our plans and the new addition we would be making to our family. I was almost too happy to sleep. That sounds weird....but it is true.

So Streamers looks like life is going to change rapidly. It appears that in a short time I will be a Mrs. again (OH MY GAWD ! SACRY HUH?)
and I will be a Mommy again. Lord have mercy!

I don't know how it will all unfold, but right now it seems like everything in my little world is just right. Guess RitaB is right...I am going to have to think of another title for my blog. LOL!

That's it in a nut shell. Anxious to hear what you guys think. Perhaps I have finally lost it and am bordering on the crazy side. Yet, crazy feels pretty damn good right now.

Take care out there!

AM