Well, we took my parental units to dinner last night to share our big news. The evening resembled something from a 3 ring circus!

After we got to the restaurant and after Mom had a glass of wine we sprung the news of our engagement. OH MY GAWD! You would have thought we had told the woman that world peace had finally occurred or that she had won the Publishers Clearing House Sweepstakes!

She was so happy.....and SO loud! Words began spewing from her lips like crazy. Here are some of my favorite things that she said in her stadium voice:

"I have been praying for this day forever! Thank you Jesus!"

"I never dreamt I would live to see the day you finally remarried!"

"My daughter is finally getting married everyone!"

She was sharing this news with anyone who would listen. The misfortunate couples sitting next to us, our waiter, and any poor soul in her vicinity.

My dear Father sat in his seat quietly. My Father is a quiet and reflective man. I used to think it was because Momma talks so much. I am now starting to wonder if it's just because he is smarter than the rest of us??

I thought at any minute the woman would start dancing on the table. Perhaps we should not have given her the wine? I sat there wondering how she would handle the second part of our good news.

At this point "R" says to me, "Honey, I think we should go call the kids?"

AM: The kids are with your sister. They are fine Honey.

R: No, I think we should call and check on them.

He smiled at me with that look that said "Get a clue, AM. I need to talk to you."

We kindly excused ourselves to go "check" on the kids. We stepped outside of the restaurant.

R: Did you see your Mother?

I wanted to say Duh everyone in the planet saw and heard that woman.

AM: Yes, I would say she is pretty darn happy.

R: Yup and we are going to keep it that way.

AM: What do you mean?

R: Did you see her? She's freaking glowing! Did you see your Dad? He looks like he wants to die!

AM: Yeah, he's not much on big scenes.

R: Those people in there are my future in-laws and I want to get off on the right foot. We wait to tell that woman until after our doctor appointment.

AM: I thought you said we should get it all out on the table?

R: DID YOU SEE YOUR MOTHER?

I am assuming that the boy thinks he was sitting at the table with someone else.

AM: Yes, Honey.

R: Then we let her bask and glow in this moment and for the love of GAWD and the other 3 people at that table we wait to tell her about the baby. We owe your Dad that much. She's gonna glow. Ok?

AM: Alright. Don't have to ask me twice.

We slip back inside to the crazy woman who used to resemble my Mother. She is now talking to a couple sitting next to us. My Father is drinking his beer, but I am guessing he wished he had chosen something a bit stronger to drown out my Momma.

The rest of the evening went off without issue. She was so happy I think she literally had a natural high. They should bottle that stuff and sell it.

She was already on her cell phone calling everyone she knew as we were leaving the restaurant. I am sure by the time I write this she has talked to everyone she knows and as well as every stranger who would lend an ear.

So, step one complete. R was right. We should let her glow for a few days and tell her about the baby in the privacy of our home. That seems safer for everyone involved.

Oh the journey begins....it's going to be one Hell of a ride! Happy Friday! Take care out there,

AM

First of all I have to say, "Thank You!" to all of you wonderful and amazing Streamers! I am so touched by all of your comments, PM's, and Well Wishes! You guys never cease to amaze me with your kind words and love and support. It is hard to express to "outsiders" the power of the Stream...but it is something truly special.

I am not always great at expressing sentiment, but you all truly know how to touch this crazy girl’s heart and soul! Thank you. You guys made me have to take out the tissues! LOL

And a very special thank to my fellow Texan Colo! Her post on her site today brought tears to my eyes and deeply moved me as she so very often does with her words and beautiful pictures. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

I am still reeling from the excitement of the past few days. It still seems surreal to me, but I am savoring it for all that it is worth. Life has a funny way of changing in the blink of an eye, and I for one am grateful for this change.

R has been like a kid in a candy store. I don't think I have ever seen a grown man be so giddy! For the record he hates when I use the word "giddy" in reference to him, but it truly suits him right now.

Last night he was non-stop talking about all the things we need to do in the next several months. I realized that we will both be very busy bees to say the least. Yet, I know it will all fall into place in its own time. I hope!

I have my first doctor’s appointment on Wednesday. R wants to go with me. I assured him that the first appointment would be uneventful, but he assured me he wasn't going to miss it. It's weird to be with a man who cares so much about even the littlest of things. I was lucky to get my Ex-Husband to just show up for DB's birth..let alone a Dr. appointment. It all seems new....almost like it is the first time.

We were supposed to take my parents to dinner tonight to share the news. Yet, Mom called early this morning to let me know she was feeling a bit under the weather. Maybe that is a good thing...as you guys know my Mother well.

I am quite certain she will be thrilled that I am getting married. She will most likely stand up and hoot and holler and break into festive dancing! For years she has been telling me I was too picky and was convinced I would end up an old maid with 1 million cats.

I know she will love having another grandchild, but I can just hear the comments for the next nine months about the way it unfolded. I am certain they will be many in number and make for good future posts here. Maybe she will surprise me and not say a word. Wait! What the Hell am I thinking? We are talking about MY Mother....not a normal Mother.

R is already praying for a boy. I think he's worried that the female ratio in our new household would be overwhelming if we don't add a little more testosterone to it! He even joked about having twin boys! For the record...NOT FUNNY! Not funny at all! One baby will be plenty. I cannot see myself handling two little R's! I might go crazy! LOL

Well, I best get going. I am working at home and DB just informed me she just might "starve to death" in the next 10 minutes if I don't make her lunch. Oh the girl is a Drama Queen....but it makes her endearing all the more. Sometimes! LOL

Thank you again for all of your comments. I am so happy I can share this with such wonderful and supportive people! And I am glad that I can share this journey with you....it's going to be a new one.

Take care out there. And don't drink the water! I am convinced there was something in the water on our vacation that caused the creation of this little one. And Misty...I am still in shock that something good actually happened on a Monday! That alone means there are big changes in the horizon!

You Guys,

AM

Well, it has been an eventful 24 hours here. I have a lot to share...so bear with me if I seem to ramble on like an idiot. This will be a long post.

Last night I waited for seemed like forever for "R" to get to the house. He was supposed to come right after work, but called to inform me he had some errands and things to do first. To say the least I found myself to be a little irritated.

When you are anxious the minutes seem to pass like years. By the time the boy finally arrived it was already DB's bed time. I found myself to be a bit grumpy as he seemed so giddy and happy and had made me wait so long to do the test.

After we got DB to bed I prepped myself for peeing on the stick. "R" told me to go in the bathroom and do the test and then come out so we could go in and see the results together. I agreed.

As I headed off to the dreaded bathroom he informed me he had to get some things out of the car. I smiled at him but I think may have rolled my eyes in the process.

When I got into the bathroom I opened the box and started to read the directions. I read those 3 times...not because I did not understand the process, but because I was having a really hard time getting myself ready for the results.

Quite a bit of time had passed and "R" knocked on the door asking if I had fallen into the toilet...very funny boy isn't he?

He told me to just do it and meet him in the living room where we could wait for the results together. I somehow managed to get myself to do the deed. Pretty simple actually.....pee on the stick and then run like Hell out of the bathroom and shut the door. Not sure what I was running from exactly, but it sure felt good to be out of there.

When I walked into the living room I was in awe. There was R standing in the middle of the room with a big smile. There were roses everywhere and he had lit some candles and dimmed the lights.

All I was thinking about at that moment was, "Is the boy serious? This is not the time for a romantic interlude...that's what got us to this moment in the first place!"

I must have shown my emotions quite visibly as he took my hand and led me to the couch. We sat down and he was giggling a little bit under his breath.

He then told me that he knew how nervous I was and that he knew that this was not the way I wanted things to unfold. He also told me that he believes everything happens for a reason and that no matter what the result was we would deal with it together.

The boy does have a way of calming me down. Sometimes his words are just soothing and he is so sincere that it melts away doubts and fears in moments.

And then the boy did something I NEVER EVER dreamed he would do. I think I am still reeling from it.

He got down in front of me and I swear the boy was shaking. He took my hand and told me how much he loved me and how much it has meant to him to know me for the past years. He told me his only regret was that we didn't take our friendship to the next level sooner. I had to agree.

He was talking but there was nervousness to his tone. That is weird for R he never seems to get nervous. I asked him if he was ready to go look at the results and he said he had one more thing to say.

He then took out of his pocket a small box and opened it in front of me. I think I automatically started crying and I think he did too. In front of me was the most beautiful ring I have ever seen. The moment seemed surreal and it still does.

And then he told me that he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me no matter what the test result might be. He said that no matter what that little stick said he wanted to take our relationship to another level. He told me he wanted to ask me before we looked at the test so I would never wonder if he asked me to marry him because I was pregnant. He wanted to make sure I never even allowed that question to come into my mind.

I was still crying. I was shocked and felt like my whole body went light. I am not sure how many minutes passed but it must have been several because he finally asked me if I was going to give him an answer. His face seemed more serious than I had ever seen it before. And his hands which were holding mine were sweaty and fidgety.

I could not speak. I don't know why. I sat there staring at this amazing and beautiful man and my heart was filled with such a love that I cannot describe it in words. I tried to talk but the words got lost somewhere. I simply nodded my head yes and grabbed him to hug him. I think we both cried and then one of us started nervously laughing and we couldn't stop for several minutes.

I had forgotten about the little stick waiting for us in the bathroom. Everything just seemed to fade out....and all I could think of was how much I love this man. I wanted to savor the moment for every thrill it had to offer. I never wanted that feeling to end.

Finally we ventured into the bathroom...hand in hand. As we walked into the bathroom I stopped him. I told him I wanted him to look. He agreed and as he turned on the light I closed my eyes and squeezed his hand really hard. It was quiet.

I was anxious and started asking him to tell me what it said. And suddenly he just grabbed me and hugged me and started laughing. I opened my eyes and looked at him. He was wearing the biggest smile I have ever seen. I gave him the "Well...what does it say look??"

R: AM, you and I are going to have a beautiful baby.

AM: It's positive?

R: Yes, baby it is....

AM: And you are okay with this? Really okay? Are we ready for this?

I started giving him question after question and he kept saying yes, yes, and yes. And then suddenly it just seemed okay to me. Everything just seemed okay. And R's happiness and joy were contagious. I could not help but share his excitement.

We ended up staying up most of the night talking about our future and our plans and the new addition we would be making to our family. I was almost too happy to sleep. That sounds weird....but it is true.

So Streamers looks like life is going to change rapidly. It appears that in a short time I will be a Mrs. again (OH MY GAWD ! SACRY HUH?)
and I will be a Mommy again. Lord have mercy!

I don't know how it will all unfold, but right now it seems like everything in my little world is just right. Guess RitaB is right...I am going to have to think of another title for my blog. LOL!

That's it in a nut shell. Anxious to hear what you guys think. Perhaps I have finally lost it and am bordering on the crazy side. Yet, crazy feels pretty damn good right now.

Take care out there!

AM

Well, I'm late. Not the kind of late that has you walking into a board room after the meeting has already started. Nope...the kind of late that's end result is sheer and utter PANIC!

I have only been "late" twice in my entire life. The first time resulted in the arrival of DB and the second time was because I had surgery and my body was in disarray. This time...well I don't think I need to explain it.

The first few days I wasn't too worried. I am very careful and I pop that little pill every day...same time and same bat channel. By day four I was starting to get nervous. I mentioned it to "R" thinking he would share in my nervous state. He did not.

He was calm and said something along the lines of, "We will deal with this and I am here for you...BLAH, BLAH, BLAH." I know it sounds harsh of me but I really wish the boy had at least shown a little nervousness instead of what appeared to be a smile and a pat on his own back.

So today....which is now day 7 of being late I stopped on the way home to get one of those home tests. That was fun. I was not aware that they had a million different home pregnancy tests. For some reason I just felt dirty in that aisle. But alas I picked one out.

When I got up to the check out stand the lady smiled at me and said,"Best of luck to you." Not sure what the Hell she meant by that at all. I smiled at her, but really wanted to knock her on the head with the e.p.t. I restrained..... It was hard though.

So now I am sitting here staring at the damn box as if the aliens dropped it on my front door step. R and I are going to "perform" the test tonight after we get DB to sleep. For some reason that feels a million hours from now. Maybe I should just let her stay up all night??

I am a nervous wreck. R on the other hand is bordering on jovial and I know why. I mean he loves kids...so do I. I would love some day to add to my family, but I am pretty darn sure this is not the way I want to do it. R seems to take the approach if the test is positive that it is simply meant to be. I on the other hand feel scared to death and literally might toss my cookies at any given moment.


So Streamers....in a few short hours I shall know the answer to the question that is literally burning a hole in my head and my stomach as well. If you turn on CNN tonight and see a picture of a suburban woman running like a crazy horse through the streets screaming, "How did this happen???" please don't worry. I am sure I shall recover and somehow survive.

In a few short hours a little stick and a little tinkle will tell me if my life is about to change in a big way, or if it will continue the way it is right now. Wish me luck....whatever the Hell that means at the moment.

Take care,

AM

Well it again has been a long time since I was able to write a post here. Summer is flying by in the blink of an eye and my time to write has been minimal. I am sorry...

The past few weeks DB was gone and I enjoyed my grown up time and sleeping in on the weekends. I must admit I enjoyed my "quiet" time quite a bit, but was really glad to have her back home.

R and I took the kids out of town for the 4th of July. I realized that between the 2 of us we have three kids....but somehow I have 4 kids. This is because I now know I am dating the biggest kid of them all.

This is not a shocker. Yet I find it amusing that the kids sometimes are better behaved than R.

We spent a good hour at the firework stand, not because the kids wanted to but because R could not pry himself away from the lure of things that make loud noises and blow up.

He spent and I kid you not.....300 bucks on fireworks...on the first trip to the firework stand. The 6 days we all spent together brought us back to the stand 4 times after that. Lord have mercy.

I learned that I should not light things that have the possibility of exploding in your hands within seconds. I have the burns on my hands to prove it.

I learned that going fishing with R and the kids will result in the following:

I will be the one they throw bait at and laugh while I do the "icky" dance.

I will be the one that gets the stupid fish hook stuck in her finger trying to put a worm on the Barbie fishing pole.

I will be the one who freaks out as our youngest flings his little catch towards my head and then cries because I accidentally knocked it back in the water with my flailing hands.

Good lessons to learn. Really.

I also learned that my boyfriend is the freakin' Energizer Bunny. It appears that we can literally get up at dawn and all be up until Midnight and he's still going strong. I am convinced that even the end of the world would not affect his libido. I also learned that faking sleep and a headache only seem to make it more of a challenge for the boy.

Yes, it has been a busy summer. I am not complaining as I have had a wonderful time so far, but it is nice to know that we will be home for a while. I think we are all in need of some normalcy....not that I even have a clue as to what "normal" is these days.


DB is ready to go hit the swimming pool and I should really make some calls for work. I hope all of you Streamers are doing well these days and I promise to spend some time this weekend catching up. I finally have a weekend at home and I plan on enjoying every moment of it.

Take care out there, Campers!

AM